ooze

fingers thick
and shaky
uncomprehending eyes
roll back to look at
thoughtstreams of fear
and worry
gloomed deep
ocd toes flick to a
nervous rythmn
this is what it is to wait
again
with a jar of peanut butter
rent still upaid
car problems
woman problems
dog problems
the one that now knows how to open
the door and release herself
into the street
a phonecall telling
us of a scared
golden retriever
running through
a warehouse
can't paint
or write
ahh,
sobriety.